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I often think that white people can't relate to the jokes that asian people make about their families. Contrary to popular belief, they really are true. Maybe if more people recount stories like these, they would understand. =)
Last Friday, I got my fat ass back on my bike, and man did it feel good. I've been spending just about every minute, pre-occupied with taking care of everything in the world except myself. Taxes, Parents' taxes, work, dog, house, etc. It felt good to do something that was just for me again. There's something about getting on the bike and feeling the wind run by that is therapeutic. I never run or bike to music. Just me and the workout. And life can be good. Of course my cycling jerseys felt a tad tight around the tummy. I can't wait to get back to my normal self.
Last weekend, I had a night out on the town with The Squrrel, a friend that I hadn't seen in a while. A lot of catching up, discussion about life in general, and drinks. I think back to a year ago, and I was more or less in the same state of mind. Got a metric ton of great things going for me, but it all just seems kinda empty. It's kinda crazy. Most of my friends have stopped getting married and are now in the process of having kids. While I'm ecstatic for all of them, I certainly don't envy them or wish that I was in their place.
It's weird trying to explain myself, and I wanted to try and find a better way to phrase this, but I can't. I don't necessarily want to be in a relationship, but I wish I was actively dating. Does that even make sense? The eternal conflict from two sets of proverbs: "You'll find someone as soon as you stop looking" and "Don't let life pass you by". Are they both trumped by "the early bird gets the worm"? Who knows?
It was strange thinking about the fact that I don't know a single female friend in this city that is single. Every single one of them is married or attached. Well one is divorced, but I wasn't going to focus on that. Oops, too late. No going back now. Better to mention it than to pretend to forget about her. Is the population skew really that bad or is it just the inevitability of working for lots of male-laden technology companies?
It's funny, but as The Squrrel and I talked more, I realized it's not even relationships with the opposite gender that seem to be lacking. There are large aspects of my life that seem sorta empty because the guy friends that I used to share those activities with have also moved away. I could always count on some of them to do guy things like mountain biking, watching the game, or the annual viewing of the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show. This year, it was even recorded in HD!
A week ago, I had lunch with an ex-coworker of mine that told me he was leaving town. He and his wife were headed off to Seattle so he could take a job with Amazon. Is it just a matter of time before I leave Austin? Probably. Sometimes good enough doesn't cut it when you want great. I've never settled before. Why settle now?
P.S. I didn't realize this until I started typing this entry, but it was exactly a year ago that I broke up with an ex. How crazy is that? This fact is mildly frightening.
From tonight's episode of "What About Brian?":
"You have got to learn. Somewhere out there, there is a trophy wife waiting for you that has not entered the 5th grade."
Damn. That is some bitter writing.
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